My biggest fear for this week has come true

At 5:30 p.m. my uncle (dad's brother) passed away. He's been suffering with cancer for more than ten years. Part of me is greatful that he's no longer in pain. Of course the selfish side of me is having a very difficult time dealing with the fact that my loved one is gone, I didn't get to say goodbye and I'm 1,500 miles away from home. Then there's my middle daughter's birthday party on Friday. My sister is flying in on Friday. A non refundable flight at that. We aren't sure when the funeral will be so my sis and I may miss it all together. I'm worried about how my father is handling all this and I'm his baby so I want to be there with/for him so badly. Earlier this week I had told the husband that I probably wouldn't go home for the funeral and now that the uncle is gone all I want is my family! The husband is on his way home since I'm obviously not dealing with this very well. A good friend of mine here locally just called me back and we prayed together. It's so nice to finally have a good friend here. Those of you who have moved a lot in life can understand. This is my first move away from where I've always called home. All my friends there I've had since preschool. Making new friends is a whole new world to me so I'm thankful for the dear friend I do have here on the beach. She's almost old enough to be my mother but has children my children's ages so we've decided we're more like sisters. LOL Most of her family is up north or out west so she can relate to being so far from home in a time like this. She has comforted me in more ways than she'll ever know. I love you Mrs. S.!!!! I'll check back in later to give updates on all the other details in my life.