Tuesday, October 14, 2008

My biggest fear for this week has come true

At 5:30 p.m. my uncle (dad's brother) passed away. He's been suffering with cancer for more than ten years. Part of me is greatful that he's no longer in pain. Of course the selfish side of me is having a very difficult time dealing with the fact that my loved one is gone, I didn't get to say goodbye and I'm 1,500 miles away from home. Then there's my middle daughter's birthday party on Friday. My sister is flying in on Friday. A non refundable flight at that. We aren't sure when the funeral will be so my sis and I may miss it all together. I'm worried about how my father is handling all this and I'm his baby so I want to be there with/for him so badly. Earlier this week I had told the husband that I probably wouldn't go home for the funeral and now that the uncle is gone all I want is my family! The husband is on his way home since I'm obviously not dealing with this very well. A good friend of mine here locally just called me back and we prayed together. It's so nice to finally have a good friend here. Those of you who have moved a lot in life can understand. This is my first move away from where I've always called home. All my friends there I've had since preschool. Making new friends is a whole new world to me so I'm thankful for the dear friend I do have here on the beach. She's almost old enough to be my mother but has children my children's ages so we've decided we're more like sisters. LOL Most of her family is up north or out west so she can relate to being so far from home in a time like this. She has comforted me in more ways than she'll ever know. I love you Mrs. S.!!!! I'll check back in later to give updates on all the other details in my life.


Bigg said...

I am so sorry to hear about your uncle. I'll be thinking of you.

ravn said...

I am so sorry for your loss.

Dont u think your husband can oragize the party? Your child will have lots of partys to come...your uncles funeral is a one time only.
I am young, but I've lost many. I have never regretted going to a funeral...only the ones I dint go to..

love from Ravn

Oklahoma Farmgirl said...

Blessings to you dear girl!! I am so very sorry to learn of your uncle's passing. Loss is so hard on those of us left behind. My brother was only 47 when he died & a loss of someone to whom we are close is devastating. Whether or not you attend the funeral is a very personal decision. I did not attend my father's but I had been with him in OK for several days before he died. I lived in NV then & had to get back to my son & my job. I have never regretted that I was not at the funeral. I had said my goodbyes to him. I did mark the day & time of the funeral in my own way, privately as well as sending flowers. Know that your uncle is in a beautiful place on the Other Side. Death is not an end but a beginning of a Spirit's return Home - a place where we existed before we chose to have a human experience. A place where our Spirit has always existed. Take comfort in knowing there is no pain, no sorrow in this place that is just outside our earthly reach.

Do what feels right in your heart-listen to what your Spirit is tellig you. Then follow for that will be the right path for you.

Blessed be...